I feel so disgusted at myself, again.
I hurt so many people,
yet I can't cover up the patches no matter how hard I try.
Maybe it was just like the dream last night.
It went like this and I still remember it.
Me, Dionne and Nerissa was walking
downstairs my house, to the coffeeshop.
Suddenly, a little girl dashed across us,
hold this doll.
It was almost human sized,
just that it had a head and torso,
no lower torso or legs.
No arms too.
Just a chest and head.
A head full of messy hair.
The girl was short.
She was wearing PJs.
Her long hair was also friviliously messy.
The girl ran with her back facing us,
the doll was laughing.
A loud crazy laughter.
It's eyes gleamed of pure evil.
But, I didn't feel scared.
At first, the girl and doll, it, chased us,
but then the whole scene changed and
me, Dionne and Nerissa was chasing it instead.
We chased it till we reached the coffeeshop,
somehow, me and Dionne stopped,
and walked to the coffeeshop auntie, terrified.
The people were doing their stuff,
I looked at my watch, 3am.
Devil's hour, it said, in the movie Emily Rose.
We ran towards the Auntie,
" We saw, we saw a Mimi."
" Huh?"
" A ghost, long black messy hair on the doll, and girl.
running. Chased it. 3 of us."
By now, everyone was looking at us.
But none left their seats.
"Stay here little girls. It won't come here."
"No, our friend is still chasing it."
The lady studied us closely, " By herself?"
"Yes," Dionne answered her dryly.
"She's doomed. Don't bother going after her."
Somehow, Dionne knew not to go after it.
Leaving Nerissa to be doomed.
The whole scene changed, yet again.
And this time, almost all my cousins,
Rona, Dean, Sharmin, Clemens, Shu Kai.
They were all playing X-box when I ran in.
It was a chalet, I still remember.
"Lyn chased after the freak!" I yelled as I approached.
They all turned their backs.
(Mind you, none of them knew Lyn, and Lyn replaced Nerissa and Rona replaced Dionne.)
I explained to them the same thing I told the coffeeshop auntie.
They looked serious.
And the chalet, somehow looked like the sec2 camp on the OUTSIDE.
They all ran out and paired up.
Me with Rona, Sharmin with Shu Kai, Clemens with Shaun.
( Shaun is a PDP sec1 boy. He took the place of Dean.)
As we all stood on the slope,
now it suddenly became LEAD camp place.
I ran back, and grabbed some toys.
They were all fishes.
Mine was a red shell,
Rona was a keychain of Gill from finding Nemo,
Clemens was Dory.
Sharmin was a wooden blue fish.
Shu Kai was a that of a silver shell.
We each took one,
I gave them instructions,
"If it captures you, DROP THE TOY. Then, we'll know who went missing, where."
I also had a first aid kit with me.
I distributed roller bandages, antiseptic cream and a triangluar bangdage.
Each one of us, suddenly had a small box around our legs.
The calf area.
We filled it with the things I gave them.
And set off.
We had to look after one another,
whether or not we were buddies.
We ran into the direction of the forest.
Where it and Lyn ran.
I remembered each of us suddenly sitting at another coffeeshop,
this time, it was deserted.
But we were blessed it was dimly lit.
We all took out our handphones and tried calling Lyn.
I dialled first,
I heard heavy panting, like someone running.
And terrible screamings.
Then it went dead silent.
All of them crowded around me and asked what I heard.
I told them and Sharmin called Lyn.
Sharmin said she couldn't get thorugh,
so Clemens called.
And he said he heard a please dial again thing.
I smsed her, no signal.
An idea just poped into my mind,
"Hey, we call altogether, within the time differece of afew seconds, maybe we can get through."
So Sharmin called first, followed by me then Clemens.
Sharmin and Clemens didn't get through,
I did.
I on-ed the speaker,
" Lyn! Where are you?"
"I don't know! I'm just chasing the girl."
"Stop chasing! Stay where you are!"
" I can't! It's so fun!"
" Lyn!"
And she hung up.
But whilst we were talking,
I could hear childish laughter and screaming.
I could sense evil.
But yet I didn't know why.
I ran into the forest,
leaving my team behind.
Then as I entered it,
a loud voice boomed across my mind.
"
You have broken the first rule: abandoning your friends."
I woke up.
I guess that Lyn, was the friend in trouble.
The ghost was The Trouble.
And Lyn can't stop chasing it because,
well, she doesn't want to.
She seem to want the Trouble.
Or the trouble just don't want to let go of the trance of her.
And I guess, me, being a busybody and bighead,
recruited more people to help,
but made it worse cos, it seems Lyn doesn't want help.
I not saying Lyn is in trouble now,
neither is it an example.
It is just saying the NAME Lyn, is a friend in trouble.
And since, Lyn didn't want my help,
she hung up.
And I, as usual, abandon my friends,
and their feelings, to go after her.
Getting myself hurt in the end.
And the story didn't finish,
maybe because God wants me to keep guessing.
But right now, I know I hurt somebody,
well ALOT of somebodies, and I want to say Sorry for hurting them.
Labels: I'm sorry.
