Bwahahahaaa.
I got in 3e3.
Same class as Wilbert, Feydric, Renny, Karan, Thiam Seng..
Almost all the guys in my class also.
It's POA and F&N and Lit.
Aglin and Lyn AND DAVIOR got in 3e1.
Aglin and Lyn are understandable.
BUT DAVIOR?
DAVIOR LEONG ZHONG JIE.
I can't believe it until I saw it lahh.
I don't mind not being in the same class as both of them.
Cause maybe I'll do better.
Haha, at least got Wilbert,
then like, er, hard to explain.
Haha.

Tomorrow starting work.
I wonder if I'll be cashier.
It'll be so cool.
I'd rather work at Uncle Cheng's Bookshop,
Tango Mango, but beggers can't be choosers,
so I'll live with it.
If I get paid enough, I might treat some of you to
something, haha((:
Or I'll go on a shopping spree and save the rest.
I can be such a bimbo.
Alrighties,
I shall go and gloat somewhere, somehow:DD
toodles!

Labels: happy me.

oh don't think you know me ;
5:58 PM;

Happy birthday Mummy.
Happy Belated, Cynthia and May Yong.

I cooked dinner for Mummy today!
Will post the pictures soon.
The cake was yummy too!
She loved the cup.
Bwahahaa, she don't know how hard it was
to cook and prepare everything.
I only eat abit of the dinner cos I hated the sauce.
My mother loved it though:DD
Tomorrow getting back Report Book and
Meeting Uncle Cheng for the job thing.
I'll post about the class and all.
I'm not too worried.
But if I get in first choice,
I'd murder myself cause,
it's A.Maths, E.Maths and Physics.

Ok, I just found out I'm supposed to go
SAFRA with Davior, Aglin they all.
HOW?!
Everything seems to clash.
Haha, I believe God will tell me what to do first((:
Today I accidently call Milo,
Clem-mens!
Cause usually the way I call Milo is
MI-LO!
Then just nice my bro walk out,
then my mother keep saying Clemens,
so I also dont know why,
I suddenly want call Milo be come,
Clem-Mens.
I tio shock sia!
Then my mother and bro look at me funny
and then I started laughing like mad.
Ok, I can't stop laughing again.
My mother thinks I should stop blogging.
Cause when I cry, I'm using the com.
When I laugh like an idiot, I'm using the com.
Yay me:DD

oh don't think you know me ;
8:28 PM;

Last day of school, I rode on this really weird bus.
Some ITE students who boarded the bus said
really loudly the bus is turning into coast storage:DD









Last day of school,
me and Lyn drew the whiteboard.
Bwahahaa.





On Saturday,
I helped out for the TOC.
Played around.
Shut up, I know I spelt
Strawberry wrongly.
But better than Dionne,
who said Chichiwa, instead of
Chiwawa today.




Binghong's back:DD



My back:



My OC's back!



Brandon was actually putting eye drop.
Haha!


Bing Hong and OC Valerie.


I own BingHong cos I'm more pro:DD


OC!


This time, I spelt it correctly(:


Charlotte's back.




Unsuspecting Victim.


Because I keep saying Whatever,
Jarvis literally gave me a Whatever.


One of the Guide's back.


Brandon and his group.


Charlotte's back.



While waiting for the other groups to come,
we cam whored abit.






Us and Sherrill.


Me and Shaun. He got sunburnt:DD


CPR dummy


At night, we went into St John room
cos we didn't want to shout.
Lyn was teaching me Chasing Cars.


At the end of the campfire,
Nicholas hand got burnt.
He called me a sadist cause I kept laughing.
But you can't blame me,
cause he kept telling people different stories
how his hand got burnt.
And he kept cracking jokes.
Keep saying, ' I need TLCCCCCCCC, pain pain.'

Labels: let photos do the talking

oh don't think you know me ;
5:47 PM;

oh don't think you know me ;
5:18 PM;

oh don't think you know me ;
5:12 PM;

I just read her post.
I admit it hurt me,
it didn't just hurt me,
it made me feel worthless.
I think I was the one who made
her entire friday a bad day.
You know what her post said,
"for zoie , i dont even noe sia . she like dun want to friend me like this. who cares."
It's not I don't want to be friends lehhs.
Is that I'm sort of torn apart lahs.
First I have them,
then I have Dionne,
and then Aglin, Lyn and the CCSS people.
I can't be following them 24/7 cause
we are not only in different class,
we are in different streams,
different personalities.
Unlike her, she is not the only christian in her class,
after May Yong left I'm like,
alone in my class lahh.
She still has Amelia and Yok Fong and Yu Wen.
And I don't think that she feels left out
where ever she goes.
They didn't leave me out lah,
is more like the devil in my mind telling me
to feel left out and all.

I've already tagged her before her that post,
telling her I'm sorry and everything,
I even smsed her like twice,
and the result I get is a seriously hurtful 'k.'
That 'k' can mean anything,
like, if she is still angry at me,
or hurt by me,
or she is ok with me.
Then like, I was disappointed lahhs.
I don't know what will happen when I see her in church today.
I think I might feel like crying.
I don't know lahh,
they were more happy without me I guess,
like no need to worry if I go home safely,
if I'm feeling left out, which I'm trying not to,
no need to think that I'm being emo emo again.
I'm so crappy lahs.
And this is another emo post, whatever.

I really wish to shut myself up like last time,
and just spend time with God.
And not be so like this.
And her latest post indicated she is or was happy.
Who knows what will I do to spoil her day again today.
I don't really care or want to know how many people
care for me anymore,
cos I find that self pitying.
Let me just start spending time with God again.

And anyway, yesterday didn't go cell,
sorry Gen1.9, you couldn't use my house.
Went to help out at UG camp or else Charlotte
might get all, " Zoieeeee." On me.
I stayed for the campfire cause by the time we were done,
campfire was going to start in another hour.
I shan't elaborate what I did there.
I'll tell more at night,
depending on my not-so-predictable moods now.

I just have to PICK MYSELF UP like
last time when me and Vincent got into a
huge huge huge fight.
I'm glad that everything is ok for her,
I'm not sure if I'm glad if everything is
ok for me.
Lord, I need help again.
I so totally want to escape this world sometimes.

Labels: crappy post.

oh don't think you know me ;
9:41 AM;

I've been feeling guilty and upset since
after school,
after I stepped into 2N1,
after I boarded the bus,
after I met up with Dionne.
I've been feeling guilty cos I skipped PM
to pei Dionne look for a job which we didn't
even go to look for.
But I skipped it cause I promised Dionne I'll pei her,
I skipped it cause even if I go also only stay 2hours
then what's the point of going even when you pray so hard,
then half way leave, like so no respect.
It has only been a few hours but I miss school already.

I admit to you guys,
a) my walk with God is seriously dry.
b) I strive to be perfect in what I think I do best,
aka a perfectionist.
c) I think I fit in better with my non-christian friends than
my christian friends cause I really feel like I don't fit in.

And because of my being of a perfectionist,
I expect high expectations of them which makes me
easily angry at them. I'm sorry about that.
I want God to change me,
but I feel like I'm not letting him.
I'm being back that normal hyper active,
don't-really-care-about-God Zoie again.
I don't want to go back,
I want to be me when I first went CSCC,
the God-loving, God-fearing, on-fire girl
in which my non-christian friends can see the
Big Change that took place, Zoie.
I'm trying so hard,
but everytime I pray I get headaches,
I'm easy ticked off,
I'm now easily provoked and get angry
and annoyed.
I don't want to be like that.
Even right now as I'm typing, I'm shouting at my father
to wait for me to finish this post before feeding Milo.

I really, really so hard want to cry out,
want more of God,
but I just can't.
I really really want more.
Is the devil attacking already?

My Quote:
Beautiful people are people who are God-fearing, God-loving, compassionate people. People who are beautiful not on the outside, but inside. People who talk to God and hear his plans for them. That is what I call beautiful.

Labels: i want more.

oh don't think you know me ;
5:58 PM;

Blah, nothing much today.
Lyn didn't come school again.
Met her with Aglin, Davior, Feydric and Renny
after school.
Then went to SuTieng house to have DP.
Feeling mostly dry cos,
I'm
a) quite confused.
b) can't concenrate.
c) can't feel his presence, only a little.
And had some complications after that.
Shall not state what.
Praise the Lord cos I didn't go NA and
I didn't need to see the VP/P.
Collecting report book next wed,
until then, I won't know which class I'm going to.
I think it's second choice, I pray Lord will
put me to a place he wants me to be,
where I can concentrate and spread the gospel
and not slack or do anything unreasonable.
I'm so going to change myself,
you'll see me changing I try to assure you(:

when you get misunderstood and scolded,
who do you turn to?

Labels: tired.

oh don't think you know me ;
5:52 PM;

Haha, today so fun!
Mr Ibbie never come for lesson,
no relief teacher somemore.
Me and Aglin went to 2E4 watch movie.
Ok, is actually cos JiaYin got gastric then
Aglin let her lie on her mahhs,
so I watch Ghost Game lorhhs. Haha.
When we went back to class,
me, Davior, Aglin, Feydric, Joshua and Jiahao
play Pepsi Cola against
Dass, Syakur, Syamil, Shivani, Fairuz and Lokman.
We won the second time, haha.

Saw Dean a few times today.
Not my cousin Dean, is Dean Angelo.
Then cos his NCC the name tag all caps mah,
so looked like Dean Angel O.
So I keep calling him Dean Angel Ohhhhh.
Just nice we were outside Cyber Cove then
I think Melvin and his friends inside,
so I call Dean Angel Ohhhh then he go make my face.
Go pinch my cheeks then I think Melvin saw
and he was all,
"EH ZHAOJIA GIRLFRIEND CHEATING NIA!"
and I was like ?!
Since when was I ZhaoJia's girlfriend?
Must be that stupid YiMing go spread cos anyway,
whole of 3E1 thinks that.

After school went to play basketball
with the same people again.
But this time, I wanted to play Pepsi Cola,
so I very sian, very early leave.
We were let off from school at 11.20 today.
So I stayed until 3+ then go home.
Very tired, almost fell asleep in bus.
Don't think I'll be posting for KOAV today.
Oh and I sort of lied yesterday cos I was bored and
so I posted on KOAV. Haha,
whatever, zoie.

Labels: Dance to my own rythem

oh don't think you know me ;
4:48 PM;

Okay,
I'm so so so disappointed in Han Ping.
My St John Senior.
I thought he was a nice guy.
Turns out, he was the one who stole Lyn's bag.
Who beat up Keith or Frank, I don't remember.
But whatever, he now in two polices cases.
So crappy lahh.
I'm not going to post on Kiss of A Vampire today.
No new ideas yet.
I think tomorrow.

Anyway, had Prayer Meeting today.
My friend didn't join us,
she didn't have enough money.
Whatever, today was fun.
But, I still feel disappointed cause I didn't see
the China Boys today.
Well, they didn't appear yesterday too.
I want to invite them to church but I think they
might be in China.
I'll just have to keep my eyes peeeeeeeled.

Have you ever gotten jealous?
I know I am.

Labels: tired.

oh don't think you know me ;
6:31 PM;

Extreme Cam-whoring:
May look disgusting, feel free to laugh
or vomit:DD

Labels: let photos do the talking

oh don't think you know me ;
7:54 PM;