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Name is Zoie Esther Tan. Yes, I am little wild at times, especially with friends and close cousins. Studies in Changkat Changi Secondary and was birthed to the world on 13JUNE1993. I adore my BIG BIG DADDY in heaven. Candy makes me go hyper so watch out, purple is absolute love. I may go a wee bit overboard so sometimes you can find me under your bed eating your peanut butter jelly bubblegum. have no right to judge me, you don't wear my chains.

And I'm on offical Hiatus. Actually, I've MOVED. Read on about my life.

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Sunday, April 20, 2008

On Offical Hiatus.
Actually, I've moved;DD
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oh don't think you know me ;
9:47 PM;

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

I'm in the process of going on HIATUS on blogspot. But it depends though, if I'm more used to this then I'll stick to this. I'll still post here and maybe one day once I got livejournal fully figured and mastered, I'll start really posting there. Right now, this is my main domain:DD

http://zoie-ed.livejournal.com

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oh don't think you know me ;
8:49 PM;


I have an urge to switch to Livejournal. HowDDDD:

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oh don't think you know me ;
8:08 PM;


Finally, I passed Ms Wong the Edusave form:DD Not baking cheese cake tomorrow, Mdm Siti didn't tell us anything else): During POA, Wilbert and Renny went for couselling. Haha. I don't know for what reason. Maybe it's bullying or maybe teacher thought it was them who vandallised Syafiq's table. Renny and Feydric kept imitating Jean Louise Finch aka Scout from To Kill A Mockingbird's movie.

Slacked at the gym during P.E with Qiao Yu. Quite alot of 3E3 people were there after the first half of the lesson. Andrew met all the sec3s after school, I don't really know about what they were talking about, as in the Friday cell thing and all. Some things he and Jasmin said made sense, some made me a little pissed because I wasn't even involved [ but then later I think and think, and I sort of involved because I am one of the sec3s too. And anyway both of them weren't really pinpointing], some I agreed to, some just made me feel like I'm pretty much doing what God wants and all. Anyway, I went with Charlotte and Sherrill to Heats Day 1.

I was paired up with Eric at first, but then I didn't want to, so I partnered Jerome. Just as bad, but better. At one point he kept on going about dragonflies because there were so many of them around at the particular spot near the high jump. I was irratated and told him to stuff it. Some guy pushed Hakeem while he was running, cos Hakeem was leading then the guy was second. I guess he wasn't too happy to he pushed Hakeen and when Hakeem fell down, that idiot didn't even bother to turn back to look. So totally intentional! What a mean guy, that cheater. We had to use a stretcher to transport Hakeem back to the First Aid Tent.

Mrs Te brought up the subject of asking us what we think if we combined with NCDCC. OC stayed silent and Charlotte and I insisted St John stayed the way it is. So horrible, first don't let us march in Speech Day OR even have our flag there and now THIS!

I cheered for quite alot of people(: Like, Wei Li, Willy, the malay boy whose name I can't recall, Titi, OC, Qian Hao, Lyn, Lynn, Aglin, Shivani, Haridass, Aloysious, Andrew, Ian, Big Ashraf, Clement, Ze Cong, Amirah..etc. I'm such a nice friend((:

Wah, now I can't be bothered to crawl out of bed! I never once overslept before, I want to oversleep for one:DD That's so ironic of me. Haha. But I obviously can't because my mother automatically wakes up at 6.30 like that, unlike me whose auto-clock makes me wake up at 5.30 only to let me sleep another 30minutes before getting up, and then wakes me up in this hurried voice, " Zuo Yi [ my chinese name, laugh all you doofuses want]! XING LAI LE! CHI DAO LE! [Wake up! Late already!]"

I kind of miss Jeremy. Haha, it's only like..3 days since his depature on Sat and I miss him annoying me and bossing me around already((:

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oh don't think you know me ;
7:18 PM;

Monday, April 14, 2008

Sleepy day today. In Mrs Te's lesson, I fell asleep. Really. Anyway, I still owe Mrs Peh the Edusave form. Keep forgetting about it. Oh and Feydric made up this word, a word that owns all the other ridiculous things we call each other, ' Shabala-dingdong'. Cool right((: Haha.

Went with Aglin to visit her mother at the hospital then went home. At the bus stop, some guy on the upper deck on a bus waved at me. I'm like, who the heck is he?! Looked like a chinese national. Ha. Anyway, I saw Gibson with his friends while I was on the bus. Supposed to meet Dionne but she had Oral.

Slacked at home. I have officially decided to stop eating breakfast [ actually, I don't even eat breakfast at all when there is school] and lunch. I think recess is sufficent to pull me through till dinner. Save money! I still have to pay Xuan Cheng; his friend went to help me buy Speed Stacking Cups:DD. I have yet to give Noel his shirt and I owe Yin Yung a lolipop.

I was super blur today. I thought tomorrow school ends at 2.15 and the notice Charlotte put up was that we have to be at Tampines Stadium BY 2.15pm. In my mind, I was thinking, she's nuts. THEN, Po Huat smsed that Andrew wanted to meet at the sec3s tomorrow after school. And I'm like, what the crap. So much to do! So I asked him if it's important and he said yes. I told him I can't go cause I got duty for Heats Day and it's almost impossible since tomorrow school ends at 2.15 and I'll already have to be at the Stadium. Turns out, school ends at 1.30 tomorrow. Oh wow, Zoie, way to go.

Met up with Dionne after her Oral. We chit chatted and went a little bit bonkers. She force-fed me cheesecake, ew. Okay, chocolate cheese cake. It wasn't too bad, more chocolate than cheese taste, BUT IT MADE ME FATTER)): That evil girl. Haha.

Busy busy busy day tomorrow. Intending to ask Andrew Yeo if I can join the worship ministry on Sunday. Will not tell you which one I want to get. I need a few things and get a few things done.

  1. New bible
  2. Haversack bag
  3. Pass Noel his shirt
  4. Get the Edusave form
  5. Get Khairul and Nicole a bible
  6. A note book for Nicole
  7. Bible study with Nicole and Dionne
  8. Followup on Ann Ching
  9. Clean up my room and chuck unwanted things out
  10. Plan and decide birthday cause SOME people are pestering to know the date
  11. Stop bullying QiXian I don't care
  12. Pray for my friends
  13. Buy new formal shirt that I can use during Greeters
  14. Stop thinking I'm fat even though I think I am. So ironic((:
  15. Stop self-pitying. Nah, I'm not really self pitying la!
  16. Join Worship ministry
  17. Play the guitar PROPERLY and not just bits and pieces
  18. Stop ****** ****** [makes no sense to people who don't know]
  19. Buy foolscape paper, correction tape, a sharp sharpener, new ruler. [ basically, change everything other than pens in my pencil case.]
  20. Get the Jodi Picoult book, Change of Heart, Keeping Faith, Mercy, Salem Falls and Perfect Match.

There, 20 things I should do. But I didn't state if I'll do it. HA. I'll also need to stop losing my voice at the wrong times!

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oh don't think you know me ;
7:32 PM;

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Woo, I missed first service today. Had Greeter's Duty. Quite fun. I don't know how I count the people and my counter can go from 140 become 1140. Joey [ the greeter, not jeremy's brother] was like, Huh?! She's so funny:DD I thought she and Kenneth were like 17-18 like in poly but turns out they are only a year older than me. HAHA.

Madel [yesss, i finally remembered your name!] and I talked a little before duty started, then I went to attend class. Me and Esther were wearing the same pattern shirt(: Madel didn't believe we were cousins. Haha. I sat with their cell during the class, no idea why too. The sec3 boys had taken to calling me ' Endless Pit ' and I don't know why. In the class, Camren talked about bottomless pit and THEY LAUGHED. Esther was like errr, okay, that kind of thing.

Oh and I saw Zhen Ling's botak head((:

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oh don't think you know me ;
8:02 PM;

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Dionne came my house at around 11 plus AFTER calling me 1/2 an hour ago. Deserve a slap((: kidding. Luckily, my mother reminded us to take umbrella, and thus I took two. Rained like some mama when we alighted at Parkway. So we decided, okay I decided, to go MacDonald's cos it was nearer than KFC. Freaking crap, it's so crowded inside. I spotted Nerissa and then after her friend's left, Dionne and I joined her. Chatted and ate then had to rush to church to meet Jasmin and Pei Ling. I was like super wet by the time I reached PARKWAY'S OVERHEAD BRIDGE, not even half the journey la! So I gave up using the retarded and small umbrella, I was like RAH! And I swung my arm as if I wanted to throw the umbrella on the floor then walk off. Like a lot of people were looking. Haha.

Anyway, like 3/4 of my vintage jeans were wet. And my shoes felt disgusting and slimey. After going into Roxy and getting a plastic bag, I was so fed up, I decided to walk bare-footed. Nerissa and Dionne were like, huh?! I think. Haha. But don't worry, when I came to the next bridge I wore it back, but this time, the water was flithy and disgusting and it wet my nearly dry shoes AGAIN. RAGH, and the umbrella cut my thumb and it feels super painful cos I can't even SEE the cut. Like smaller than a dumb paper cut!

Cabbed down to Changi Airport cause we thought we were going to be late sending Jeremy off, but then turns out, we were like, sort of early. Wasted my five bucks so later I couldn't eat at Popeyes' after sending Jeremy off. Chatted with Nerissa a little((: Then, I fell asleep at Popeyes' after taking Xiang Jun's fries. Haha, he let me and Nerissa have em'. The retarded thing was after Xiang Jun said grace, he snorted. Nerissa and I fell about laughing because of that. Solomon too.

Had cell then went over to T3 for icebreaker. Airport hide-and-seek. What the crap right! Haha. I was hiding at Candy Empire during the first round and the lady was like, "Are you playing hide-and-seek." She looked pretty angry and I was like, "Uh." Then, she walked off. My 'uh' wasn't even a yes or a no thing! Haha, then I hid at Mini Toons and the lady and man there kept a close watch on me. I think they thought I was going to steal something. My goodness, please la, my bag is not even with me!

At the end, I got caught my Solomon. I was at the 1st level cause I went up and was waiting for the lift to come up to bring me back down. I was talking to Liang on the phone when I turned around and saw Solomon. He was like blur blur, then I scream and ran. Everyone looked at me of course, then he drag his feet follow me. Then I thinking, ai ya forfeit then forfeit la, so I turn around and surrendered. So gay la!

Played another round and at the end didn't do forfeit. Went with Liang, Solo and Xiang to tamp to play basketball. Okay, they played I watched. I was playing guitar and then later Wendy and I tricked Xiang with 'BlackMagic'. Then, I had to go home. Oh, Wendy lent me money for dinner, THANKS! Austin used Jon's bike to tompang me back to the interchange. I did get tompang-ed before but that was like when I was 5 or 6 and it was my dad or mom who tompang-ed me and I was still sitting then. BUT this time, I had to stand, and I totally freaked out. Su Tieng reassured me it will be fine, and please take note, we were like, almost under the basketball pole, so anytime the ball may hit me and Austin. Finally, I resigned and climbed on cause turns out that if I don't get on, Austin will most likely stay there until I do.

The ride was super freaky cause he went very fast, and the ground was kind of bumpy. Then, he ran the ride lights, and the next thing I knew, WE WERE CYCLING ON THE ROAD! Super dangerous la! I mean, yes, it was thrilling and I enjoyed it, BUT still it is more dangerous than me jaywalking in front of on-coming cars. During the ride, I kept saying, " I'm gonna die, I'm dead, I'm dead." And Austin would say, "You're not dead, you're alive, you're alive." And once, I was like, "Dionne is right! I AM going to die of a car accident." That horrible Austin LAUGHED and asked, "Why?" I told him cause I always jaywalk and walk into the face of danger and so Dionne told me she knows I'm going to die of a car accident one day. HE LAUGHED AGAIN.

Anyway, THANKS FOR THE RIDE, AUSTIN. And he is not really that horrible((: I saw Joshie-Boshie at the basketball too((: I was smsing Nicholas the entire day because he was trying to guess something; if he leaks it out, he is one dead scout.

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oh don't think you know me ;
9:23 PM;


Thursday

Heh, Thursday was in a way quite fun((: I don't exactly remember what happened in school though I know what happened in POA. We always have a good laugh in POA:DD Faaiz is back into the picture again, haha. Anyway, on Thursday, Mr Ong was wearing a shirt too big for him and baggy pants. Renny realised it and told me, Feydric and Thiam Seng. Then we all started laughing until Mr Ong noticed and insulted Renny. Mr Ong can kick Renny's butt pretty well for an old teacher:DD I forgot the reason why Feydric fell about laughing but I know that later while he was laughing like some maniac, he called out to Faaiz then say, " Faaiz, get your tigers!" Like super retarded!?

In F&N, we were supposed to do this dish on Salmon. It's like to promote Norwegian Salmon and the so called Mascot on the PowerPoint slide has this banada thing with words called 'The Dude' and reminded us all of QiXian cause when he says dude, he doesn't pronounce it like us which is just short, simple, sweet "Du-de" but he pronounces his as "Dew-de". And it's like super funny. For some weird reason, Feydric rolled about on the floor laughing. Reminding me of a dead cockroach on it's back. Haha.

I skipped Physics Exta Lessons because I needed to go Prayer Meeting. Actually I fogotton about the extra lesson anyway, so I went to Prayer Meeting. Oh and finally my mother let me go to the PlanetShakers conert:DDD That Andrew had to rub it in during recess when I replied him I don't think I can go. He say his mother usually don't let him go out but then because is a Christian concert so his mother allow. Yes, rub it in, don't we? Anyway, I got to go:DDDDDDD

So after Prayer Meeting me and Yok went with Liang Hui and Andrew from the Prayer Meeting and met Austin and Joshua Kong and Joel at Expo. The music was good and it was absolutely fantabulous!

Friday
Went to school and then during recess, OC, Gericho, Dean and I were talking about PlanetShakers conert. Because at night we had a chalet for the Speech Day thing and we were all like, SIAN, CANNOT GO CONCERT. After school, Mr Ng made those people who didn't go for the Extra Lesson stay back and gave us a so called lecture and made us copy out the supposed worksheet. At first I was like freaking angry because I needed to rush to meet Charlotte, then after awhile I was like, Whatever, I did it for God, so I deserved a referal anyway. In the end, Mr Ng made us write a letter of explanation no less than 80words. I word 155words for him, HA. So, I went to meet Charlotte and Sherrill at BK. That Zhao Wang was there too. Just nice, as I was sitting down I thought I heard Rachel Yang's laughter coming from behind. I got up and went to the back and sure enough, almost the whole zone was there. I was like, okaaayyy, and went back to sit with Charlotte, and Peh Han called out my name, just as I expected. He was like, "Wah, see us then run ah!"
"No la, I sitting with Charlotte mah. Then I heard Rachel laugh then I come see."
Rachel asked, "Eh, I heard Charlotte become Head Prefect."
I was thinking, oh my goodness, how you know, that kind of thing, "Er, ya. Haha."

Went off to have St John training, then that stupid Fu Chai go make us all wear trackpants. Like super hot ah! I trained the Sec1s and a few things happened amongst the sec2s. I left half way to go Koba meet the rest who were going for that night's concert. I initially thought to go to the concert, but around 15minutes later upon arriving and eating finish my Chawamushi, I changed my mind and went to the Chalet instead((:

Steven Sir very funny, haha, he go put alot alot of honey on almost everything that is being BBQ-ed. Then, whenever got something happen, like too spicy or too sweet, we all just blame it on Steven. Around 9plus like that, Charlotte, Sherrill and I went to the playground. Went a little crazy there:DD From the playground, we could see the bowling center. Just nice, there was this man, whom I thought was Indian, passed by the corridor of the bowling center and then Charlotte and I both shouted, "OI, YOU!" Then a chinese lady was following behind the man. I was thinking, that woman look familar, and Charlotte was like, "OH SHIT, THAT'S MY PARENTS!" And we all fell about laughing. True enough, Charlotte receieved an SMS from her mother saying, "When you are done, come find us at the bowling center." LOL.

Went back to the Chalet and just nice, Kamila, Mitz and Annisah were climbing onto the roof. THAT'S WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THE FIRST PLACE! Anyway, I quickly ran upstairs and knocked on the door, Fairudos opened the door and I climbed out too, then the guys went out of the room. Then, Kam spotted a lizard on the roof, so we all scrambled back in and laugh. Mitz turned off the light and someone screamed, so I used my handphone flash and it was like freaking bright. Charlotte came in and turn on the lights. We all sat down and we were all going to tell ghost stories. I insisted the light be turned on. Elvira, Jasmine and Yasmin came in too, so we all squeezed into the bed. I was telling them about my uncle going camping and then when I getting unto the scary part, Charlotte had to leave so she flung open the door and Jasmine screamed. Super funny because what happened next was that I screamed and hid my head between my legs, Elvira looked stunned, Kamila used the pillow to cover her head and banged her head unto the matteress, Mitz and Annisah hugged each other and I think one of them was screaming. Charlotte, also screamed and jumped into the room before asking, "What happened?" So retarded la! She told us she had to leave and that Jullian Sir's parents were coming back so we had to leave the room. I'm not sure who say nevermind just continue so we all huddled back together and I continued my story. I was going to the part at Sentosa, this time another story, when Mohammad, I think, opened the door and everything happened like that time Charlotte open the door. Then, the guys were all laughing. They closed the door and I was telling them about the baby crying that time when there was a knock on the door. Everyone kept quiet awhile, then like, Kamila say, "Eee, I tell you ah, when you really imagine ah, is very creepy one leh!"

We were chased down by one of the sirs and so we all went downstairs where some of them were playing the Indian poker and the rest of the guys were playing Billard at the Billard Room. My mother called and I had to go.

Today
Charlotte went off the earliest I think. But yesterday was super super fun((: Jeremy is going off to Myanmmar today and we're sending him off. Currently waiting for Dionne to come to my house and go church to meet the cell together. Gee, I'm hungry)):

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oh don't think you know me ;
7:49 AM;

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Darrrn, I forgot all about Prayer Meeting this morning. Went to school and in fact, no one made fun of me vomiting other than Nicolas WHO cheered me up a little last night. So amazing right:D In English, Feydric FINALLY didn't get his name written on the whiteboard. Well, he succeeded this for the first half hour. Then, he and his big mouth got himself 2 names on the whiteboard with the number 3. already written down. One more time he talk too much, he'll get a referral. Super funny(:

Syafiq didn't come school again today. And guess what, someone vandalised his table, the person is undoubtly QiXian. That guy everyone bully, then he can't bully back so no one to bully, go bully guys like Syafiq. Super horrible la he. He write like freaking big: Syafiq Suck Cock. Then he go frame Feydric, there small small write" Done By: Feydric" Like super stupid cause everyone knows Feydric can't be bothered to do that and not so retarded to do that too. Syafiq may be very gay and sissy, but he is still a much better person than QiXian. At least Syafiq don' step big and everything.

Partnered Feydric for F&N. Our baked macoroni was a success((: Charlotte said it tasted good. Went to BK to eat and slack awhile after Art Club. Saw Yin Yung and Wei Xuan the Fat:D Heh, so crap la they all. Wei Xiong buying a dog:DDD

Charlotte had to go back to school, so she accompany cross the road to the bus stop beside our school. Then we walk half way across, I changed my mind; I wanted to take the MRT. So we walked back to the other side. Funny part was that she didn't have to follow me back to the other side. As we were laughing at our foolishness, we turned our heads and saw Nicholas spinning around and walking infront of Isaac, Sanjay and Brandon. He walked towards us and said, " You shall pretend you didn't see anything." Then me and Charlotte started laughing. Charlotte pointed out his shorts cos it was flower printed like those hawaii type. Then I said, "Nice shorts, Nicholas." Brandon was like, " Mine is nicer." I told him to show me, and then Nicholas was like, "You must unzip this one." And Charlotte and I went eeeee. Isaac lifted his shirt abit, and said, "My one nicer." He showed his the top and color of his boxers la. So sick! LOL.

PlanetShakers is in town! Tomorrow they having a conference. Too bad next day have school [friday] or else I'll go. After St John training I'll be going to a chalet for those who took part in Speech Day:DD Weeheeheehee, I hope Khairul sir and Yong Hwee sir will be there. They very funny((:

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oh don't think you know me ;
6:16 PM;

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

I'm going to so freaking cry because of Nerissa.

nothing's gonna bring me down, no.
nothing's gonna bring me down.
I just need change, don't I.
And peel off that snobbish mask.
And maybe hope everything will be fine.

Yes, I can be snobbish, snotty, proud and boisterous,
but I don't mean it. It's just a front I'll peel away.
Yes, I can be emotional, self pityful, violent,
but I don't mean it. It's just a front I'll peel away.
I'll try to be more caring, more concerned,
more of Jesus, less of me.

I'll watch my mouth,
and talk Life not Death.
I'll keep my tongue,
and talk less.
If I have nothing really good to say,
I won't say it, cross my heart I'll try.
I can't be perfect,
but I'll try.
I make mistakes,
so do try to understand.

Right now, I don't know what to say to you,
only maybe make myself a fool.
I've got questions , I need answers,
and only you have them.
You can act pretty well like me,
but when I ask you those questions will you answer truthfully?

oh don't think you know me ;
7:15 PM;


I'm sick sick sick. Vomited about 4 or 5 times in school during recess. Went home after that so I missed the Investiture. During PE, Chea Mean disturbed the Changkat Primary people who were running on the track with us. Okay, so running, not with us, we were walking:DD Chatted with Qiao Yu and Renny. Turns out, she's a pretty okay girl(:

Look what trouble it got me when I told Nicholas I vomited:


(6:45 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
omg you just saw my friend yesterday and now you're pregnant? highly suspicious. .
(6:45 PM) zoieEsther:
NONONOOO
(6:45 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
lol.
(6.45 PM)
zoieEsther Thunder. has changed his/her personal message to "definezoiee.blogspot.com i'm not pregnant!"
(6:46 PM) zoieEsther:
rawr
(6:46 PM) zoieEsther:
nic, you have a very active imagination
(6:46 PM)
Nic . Immunity . has changed his/her personal message to "I'm immune now . Don't have to make it so obvious you're pregnant Zoie . -.-"

(6:46 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
lol.
(6:46 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
zoie
(6:46 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
you have a very active lifestyel.
(6:46 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
style*
(6:47 PM) zoieEsther:
lol
(6:47 PM) zoieEsther:
nooo
(6:47 PM)
Nic . Immunity . has changed his/her personal message to "I'm immune now . Now now you don't have to make it so official you're pregnant Zoie . -.-"

(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
NOOOO
(6:48 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
here's my reply to your pm . (:
(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
NICHOLAS!
(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
NONONONONONONONONO
(6:48 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
Lol.
(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
TAKE IT OFF
(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
TAKE IT OFF
(6:48 PM)
zoieEsther Thunder. has changed his/her personal message to "definezoiee.blogspot.com NICHOLAS!!!!"

(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
TAKE IT OFF
(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
TAKE IT OFF
(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
MY MOTHER'S BACK
(6:48 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
:LOL.
(6:48 PM) zoieEsther:
RAWRRR
(6:48 PM)
Nic . Immunity . has changed his/her personal message to "I'm immune now . Zoie . You're PREG . . Oh My God ."
(6:48 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
done.
(6:48 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
(:
(6:50 PM)
Nic . Immunity . has changed his/her personal message to "I'm immune now . Zoie . You've been a naughty girl haven't you . . . Getting yourself pregnant . . ."
(6:51 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
at least it's much better now.
(6:51 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
ain't it?
(6:51 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
my pm . (:
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
RAWRRR
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
NOOOOOOOOOOO
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
NICHOLASSSS
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
TAKE IT OFF
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
TAKE IT OFF
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
I'M DOOMED
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
MY ENTIRE SEC3 LIFE IS FLASHING BEFORE MY EYES
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
AHHH
(6:52 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
no you're not. . .
(6:52 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
LOL.
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
MY ENTIRE SEC3 LIFE IS BEING RUINED BY YOU
(6:52 PM) zoieEsther:
RAAAHHH
(6:52 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
ok. . .
(6:53 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
now you're being plain pessismist. -.-
(6:53 PM) zoieEsther:
NICHOLAS!!!
(6:53 PM) zoieEsther:
TAKE IT OFF
(6:53 PM)
Nic . Immunity . has changed his/her personal message to "I'm immune now ."
(6:53 PM) zoieEsther:
yay: D
(6:53 PM)
Nic . Immunity . has changed his/her personal message to "I'm immune now . Zoie , go get a pregnancy kit . helps alot ."

(6:53 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
(:
(6:53 PM) zoieEsther:
RAH
(6:53 PM) zoieEsther:
NICHOLAS
(6:53 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
lololol. . .what i do. . .-.-
(6:54 PM) zoieEsther:
take it off!!
(6:54 PM) zoieEsther:
you do KNOW that your ENTIRE contact list can SEE YOUR PM!
(6:54 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
oh really?
(6:54 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
oh. . . .
(6:54 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
cool. . .
(6:55 PM) zoieEsther:
NICHOLAS!
(6:55 PM)
Nic . Immunity . has changed his/her personal message to "I'm immune now . ZOIE ."
(6:55 PM) Nic . Immunity .:
alright done.
(6:55 PM) zoieEsther:
lol.


And there is more from where that came from. He keeps putting stuff that shouldn't be there! Now his Personal message is:

I'm immune now . So ZOIE . . .

Anyway, I went home by myself and after awhile I met Dionne, Nerissa and Jeremy at KFC, Parkway. While waiting for Jeremy to come, me and Dionne were fighting over Nerissa's English homework. Both of us were so bored, we both wanted to do it. Then, when Jeremy came, all three of us were fighting over the PSP. Heh.

I vomited out the cheese fries, yes, gross and that's why I'm telling you guys cause I KNOW you all have AN ACTIVE IMAGINATION just like NICHOLAS. Heh. Ohh, I'm hunnggrryyy. Gee, I have got to stop not going to school this month. But what can I do, I'm a sick invalid. Heh.

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6:47 PM;

Monday, April 07, 2008

Like a whirlwind of emotions,
a emotional train wreck,
a feeling like as though one has been misplaced.
I'm not gonna let it get me down.
Not gonna get me down, no.
When I want it, I'll get it.
I want Jesus. More of Jesus.
Not gonna get me down, no.
Not gonna get me down.
Rising up to a higher place,
where I know I can seek His face.
I know I won't let anything get in my way.
Problems will be settled before Him,
angels will sing and crown Him,
Prince of Peace, Lord of Lords,
nothing's gonna get me down and out,
nothing's gonna get me down.


School was quite fun today:DD Charlotte forgot how to play the MRT game and we freaked out Charmaine with "BlackMagic". During recess, Charlotte said Martin keeps looking at me and she thinks he likes me. I'm like, just look only what, maybe he stoning; looking at pillar, how? Then she shrug her shoulders then I ask,"Who is Martin anyway?" She points him out to me, and I'm like err, cos I can't see his face clearly.

Went to meet Liang Hui they all at KFC. Nicholas was sitting diagonally opposite me with his friends and I saw him then I look abit and thought, "OH, so there he is!" Cos I wanted to tell him I know how to play the MRT game already:DD Then, later, when me and Jasmin got on bus 9, he also took the same bus. We both chatted on the bus, me and Nicholas I mean, then later he tell me his friend thinks I like him, him as in his friend, not Nicholas, then I'm like, NONONOO! Cannot be! Ragh, I just look and people think I like him! My goodness! Who is so desperate to think that way! I will most probably NOT even like him la.

Then, after alighting, Nicholas went home and Jasmin and I went to look for Liang Hui and Jon. When most of the cell was there, excluding Jeremy since it SUPPOSED to be a surprise but I don't know which spoiler go tell him a bit of this, a bit of that, and he pieced it together and he found out. BUT anyway, Jinn Song, Xiang Jun, Solomon and me hid in Liang's room, while Jeremy came. We were supposed to jump out at him suddenly and the guys were to throw themselves and taopok Jeremy, but the plan somehow backfired when Jinn Song dashed out, ran towards the door, Solomon and Xiang Jun followed behind, ran out, but then stood there and started staring at Jinn Song. So retarded! While we were in the room, Xiang Jun kept making us laugh. Shall not say what he said and did in case it offends anyone.

Steamboat was good. Jeremy kept trying to take candid shots of us while we were unsuspecting. Might be meeting up with Dionne tomorrow, but I got tuition. God give me the grace and make either the teacher sick or let her forget about tomorrow's lesson. Amen. LOL, kidding:D.

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oh don't think you know me ;
9:15 PM;

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Shit. Merry bloody go round. Why not square or rectangle or a freaking octagon or tri-crap the shit-angle?! Why ROUND?! I just crawled out of the shitty mud hole and stood by the side getting ready to take my next freak step and then next thing I knew, I've fallen back into that trap.Argh.



Dionne came church today:DD So did Nerissa and Nicole((: After service went to watch The Spiderwick Chronicles. with my mother and brother. My com's bluetooth is still not working, wah. It's like super nice! Rah((: Nothing much today. Whenever I have the urge to blog, I don't have my laptop with me. Oh how I wish I had the small white or maybe even PURPLE portable one with me! Then I can blog or at least write what I want to blog about on Microsoft Word and then blog, whatever. Now I really no mood to blog because I just..well, sort of found out or also can say noticed something. Heh.


***UPDATE:

Just decided to blog again:D Heh, cos I just remembered what I wanted to blog about. Or should I say 'rant'. Anyway, Like I said, Dionne came church so we were all in Katong Laksa, and yes I went 1st Service, and I was there trying to trick Dionne with the MRT game and Johnny Woosh when I fount out Jasmin told Dionne how to play both. Spoiler! Haha, so then I was reeaally bored and whilst waiting for the rest of the cell, I took out Jeremy's PSP to play and if you're wondering, no I haven't return him yet. I remember clearly what happened next:

I was playing the DJ Max2 the song Goodbye, obviously trying to show off to Dionne I can play x5 with that. Hey, I didn't lie about that:D So, I was laughing abit with Dionne then I was picking that song when I saw Sean/ Shawn/ Shaun or how ever you spell his name, come in. I pretended not to notice of course and pressed the circle to start the game. After awhile, I got quite absorbed in the game half way, trying not to break the combos when I saw through the corner of my eye, and although the side of my specs was blocking, I could make out a purple shirt beside me. I was stunned for awhile because, [before that I failed to tell you all that Shaun/ Sean/ Shawn/ whatever was wearing the purple Like Crazy shirt], and I knew that it was Shaun/ Sean/ Shawn/ whtvr beside me. Then, he bend down beside me really close. I can't swear but if I could I would have BECAUSE HIS FACE WAS LITERALLY ALMOST TOUCHING MINE. Sirens were going off in my head and I was screaming at the top of my mental voice inside my maybe smallish brain. I started gripping the PSP reaaally hard and kind of panicked inside me. I guess Dionne could sense my distressed. Shaun/ Sean/ Shawn/ whtvr tried to make small talk with me like, "What game is that?" "Next time I play with you." All these in which I replied usually single word answers because I know if I continue talking I might:

A) act in an irrational manner like scream at him, slap his face away, start sobbing uncontrollably
B) just break down
C) drop the PSP, which I hope I won't, and yell at him.

Anyway, all this while he was so so so so close to me. I'm serious. I could feel almost everyone who noticed like totally staring at us. I was like thinking, "Oh please please please, let someone speak up and distract him." I tried to give Dionne a pleading look by the side of my eye, but oh the Lord wanted me to wear specs and thus blocked her from seeing my eye I guess. It was Liang Hui and Jasmin who spoke up and saved me from my mental torture. I would swear if I could swear that his eyes weren't on the game at all, but at me. Rah. I feel absolutely traumatised.

You'd ask me why I didn't react like I normally would. Or so I thought I normally would. I don't like it when guys come too close to me. I don't mind then shaking my hand, tapping me on the shoulder or even sometimes when we're playing games; holding hands, but if a guy puts his hand around my shoulders, on my shoulders, on my waist, on my leg, or his face super close to my face, I start to panic. When I panic, words some how choke up my throat, tears form behind my eyes, sirens start going off and literally my almost so called perfect or almost perfect world/ persona starts falling apart.

After that torturous moment was over which lasted for a few minutes but seemed like days to me, we went to Katong Shopping Mall foodcourt instead to meet the cell. I'm glad we changed location. A few more moments like that and I'm pretty much sure I start yelling my head off for the cops to come till the cows come home. Only there aren't any cows in Singapore, or so at Katong, neither will the cops be bothered about this. If you want to know more moments of this I'd gladly show you:
http://definezoiee.blogspot.com/2008/03/jermyd.html

The very last part. I didn't emphasise on how close then. Or what he did. But Joana's shepherd saw everything and she saved me that day a few loads of times. Rah.

Service was good. Made me temporary forget about the incident. I thought I was over the molest thing but I guess I burried it so deep in memory that if you just scratch the surface of the soil on top of it, it literally shakes me. I prayed to overcome it, but I don't think it's working. I keep thinking it's okay, that everything is fine. I wonder if it's a crime to lie to yourself. Sometimes, it did seem okay, like nothing happened, but everytime, just a little soil is moved, my whole being feels drained.

Rahhhh, I thank God for friends. They really do help. Heh, didn't intend to update so much, sorry about the long long long rants.

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8:24 PM;

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Hehe, too lazy to blog about yesterday. Shall sum up everything, ha. I never knew Andrew was helping out too. I thought he backed out on the first trainning. Anyway, after the parade, Gericho looked super super pale. He was sick and yet he still made it through being the flag bearer. He was like shaking a lot during the parade, we the St Johns, were freaking worried he would suddenly peng san and faint, the Scout's flag would drop and I'm not too sure if they'll make them do push ups on the account that the Flag Bearer is sick. Headed up to the CCS after checking on Gericho and ate dinner. Weehee, free some more((: Nasi Lemak. St John ate first because only got me and Sherrill. Charlotte and OC Valerie went to take prize. Went to the St John room to slack and wait for OC and Charlotte. Pang Cheng was there:DD Before the Parade started yesterday afternoon, we were inside the St John room playing games like 'Johnny Woosh', the 'MRT' game, 'How many sheep[ meh meh] jump over the fence' and 'What o' clock?' . Very fun:DD And I learnt a quite a number. Got super hyped up after that with the Johnny Woosh. We all trick Fu Chai who took like...15minutes plus to figure out:DD

Well, today had cell. I went a little bonkers and I'm quite happy that now I can play DJ Max2 at 5x speed:DD But I really have to return Jeremy the PSP because I seriously need to start studying if I want to pass my Mid Year with flying PURPLE colors:DD Haha.

The cell met Dionne at Parkway KFC after that, I left to go my Gran Ma's house. Esther was there:DD After eating with her, we went into Andy's room. He seriously seriously look like Renny. And Renny seriously seriously look a lot like him! Then, he borrowed Jeremy's PSP and playing Crisis something...I'm not sure if he is even allowed to play that game. I've still gotta tell Jeremy about it. There was a particular smell that stunk and irritated our noses so bad, we closed the room's door. Cam whored with Esther, [no not myself silly fools, my cousin:DD], then annoyed Andy a little((: I helped him pull out two strands of white hair also, so good right! Haha, I still can't believe he is like...20. He so totally looks like 18-19 like that! Rah.

Me and Abel talked about the Star of David and the Satanist sign. He tattooed the Satanic one on both his elbows. I feel like praying for his salvation. I really do. I at first mistaken it for the Star of David which has six sides. And I blurted out, "Star of David?" Which was obviously stupid on my part because I knew he didn't like Christians all along. And he gave me a weird look and said no. Then we started talking about it awhile, my uncles and aunts probably heard our conversation which took place in the living room, with about...a few metres or at least a metre gap between us.

Went home, [yes, I'm tired, need I say more?], on the way walking towards our door, me and my brother played a ridiculous game. We had to add the word, 'ous', behind each sentance, he then argued with me we should add a 'ous' behind each word instead. Quite retarded since his sentance came out as, " No-ous, itous shouldous beous behindous everyous wordous." And I was like, "No, it should be behind every sentance or it'll come out retardedous, ous. Ous?" Haha. Then we changed 'ous' to 'aye' so it sounded a little like Pig-Latin. It's some sort of a code in case you all didn't know it.

Woohoo, long post, yeah. Attending first service tomorrow so gotta catch some shut eye now(:

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oh don't think you know me ;
10:27 PM;

Friday, April 04, 2008

FEYDRIC DAO ME THE WHOLE DAY THEN MAKE ME CRY)):


Hmph, haha, okay, I'm too tired and hyped up to blog:D but will update tomorrow about today Speech Day. Haha. Even though yesterday he said sorry, dont know why today we both like never talk or annoy each other. Somehow I miss my buddy, Feydric, in class. LOL. So suck right, haha, Aglin also, no her in class like so dead)): I wish we were all in the same class AND i regretted NOT taking ART.

***UPDATE: Feydric didn't make me cry la. It's some other stupid reason which I forgot:DD

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oh don't think you know me ;
9:49 PM;

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Sick. Angry. Tired.

Didn't go school.

Can't parents understand.

You'll know when I'm trying to run away from my problems when i get too worked up or too hyper. Trying to cover it all up.

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oh don't think you know me ;
8:59 PM;

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

My mama, I'm sick. My throat is sore, my nose is running. Ragh, horrible. But my day is good. I'm really tired, I guess cause I'm sick and all. Mr Ng and Mrs Tan didn't come today. I'm currently not speaking to Feydric because of something.

Rahh, LORD HEAL ME. I believe, you're my healer.

Siew Leng came school today. I didn't talk to her at all, I was tending to this guy who fell off his bike really badly. It's super gross the wound. And Bion scratched himself on the back and it bled. A lot. He didn't want the SJAB's help)): he went home all sweaty. I'm afraid that the cut might get infected, so I SMSed Andrew to help me tell Bion to clean his wound first thing when he reach home. Guess what Andrew replied, " Sorry, who are you?" My goodness, he doesn't even have my number!

Now the whole class thinks I like Vincent because of that retarded Wilbert. It has become this trend that the class boys will ask me who I like and try to sabo me. The first person Wilbert guessed was his brother, then Andrew then Qi Xian [ so disgusting right!], then Feydric, then Vincent. Then, HE OWNSELF DECIDED THAT I LIKE VINCENT. Like crap sia. So he starts chanting Vincent's name with Feydric. I'm like oh crap, not again. Because I USED to like him, [like so last year la, somemore it has been more than a year since I stopped liking him already, rah.] but now I don't. So there, the first letter of the VAMs is revealed. Whatever, I'm too tired to fight or argue with them anyway. Rah.

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oh don't think you know me ;
6:58 PM;

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

I'm moving to the UK.







































Happy April Fools:DD

I successfully tricked more than 30 people in my school with it. Miao Jing cried when she heard I was moving and Feydric they all even wanted to hold a farewell party for me this saturday:DD Haha! Super funny. I only got fooled like 3times ONLY. A record breaker since I was quite blur today((:

Siew Leng still hasn't come to school. Wonder what's up. I find it weird cause no one can be sick for SO long. Heh. I'm really tired now.

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7:19 PM;